It feels like everything is falling apart

I was doing really well I was happy and joyful and I loved my life. Now all of the sudden I don't want to talk to anyone I don't want to do anything I haven't even been to school in over a week. I feel miserable and lost.
I keep having a horrible flashbacks that I can't make go away, I was stuck in a three hour long flashback and I couldn't make it stop now they are happening all the time and the only way I am ok is if I am sleeping and even that isn't helping all the time because I am having horrible nightmares, I hate the so called men that did this to me I hate them with everything in me I hate that I feel afraid of my shadow I hate that I am scared.

I know I am just rambling but I really had to just get this out of me I had to find a way to let it go and I am hoping this is the way to get the letting go process started I thought it already had started but apparently it wanted to come back.

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