going through all of my posts I realized I have left some things out. So after I finish I will go back and clear things up. I realize the way it was and the way i wrote it I should have given more info. I am sorry about that but I guess they weren't really important things just things that need to get out of my head still. So i will continue where I left off and then I will update everything.
Thank you for your patience with me this is very hard to write and very hard to relive in my head because that is exactly what happens, I relive it and it scares me sometimes. The PTSD still scares me so bad with the flashbacks I hope and know I will be ok someday.
thank you everyone for following me.
Have a great day,
The yellow Penguin