Things have been going good!

I am sorry I haven't posted in a while I have had a lot on plate, I am getting ready to start school again, I know I have tried once but I really think this time is going to be better.

I have been doing well the flashbacks, nightmares, and anxiety have been hell but I have been dealing with them as they come. I have been trying to keep optimistic and I really think it is working, I don't want to sleep all the time, I am trying to reach out to my friends more because I know there are a lot of people who I shut out, some I won't get back they just didn't understand and that is ok. I have realized who my real friends are and I am happy to call them friends.

The only thing right now that hurts me is one person who I thought would understand was the first person to decide not to be my friend anymore and that hurt, she said I was a horrible friend and that I didn't make time for her, I did she just couldn't understand that there were days I didn't even get out of bed.

OK off topic but I am back to being me for now I know that there are bumps in the road and I know they are going to be bad but I think I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel, I am so excited for that light and I can't wait to be completely me again. I know I will never be the old me but I think this me will be so much better and stronger. I know I will fight with my inner demons for the rest of my life but I also know they won't be as hard to take on anymore.

I will keep you all informed and I will try to post more even if it is just a silly picture or joke or something.

I hope you all have a wonderful day,night, morning where ever you are!


  1. No matter how good of a friend someone has been, they will not take being shut out for long periods of time when they have their own shit going on. If you were a good friend in the first place you would have realized that and reached out to her.

    1. I do understand that! I do feel really bad, because I didn't realize I was hurting that friend. I know what is done is done and there is no going back on that hurt but I am sorry I didn't make the time I should have.