I don't know if I can do this anymore

I have a confession...

I tried to kill myself last night. I tried to take all of my sleeping pills at once, but just as I put them in my mouth my girlfriend walked in I held them there for a few minutes but then I spit most of them out. I am a walking mess and I don't even know what to do with myself anymore. I am so tired of being in my head and feeling lost. My best friend is mad at me, my other good friend was mad at me last night and I always seem to make my girlfriend sad. I just feel like I can't do anything right anymore.

I just had to get this out of me I have too much on my plate.