Tired

I am a survivor

I loved this and I had to share it with you all!!! This is so true.

Why women cry!

Why Women Cry
A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said, "When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,

yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

"What" and "If"

How to deal with things

I am having a lot of trouble dealing here lately the day to day stuff seems to be getting harder and harder to deal with and I don't even know if i want to get out of my bed most days. I do get up but I really don't know if I should, sometimes I wonder if this life is worth living. I know if I wasn't here everyone wouldn't suffer along with me like I know they do. They suffer by seeing me constantly on edge or crabby or just plain sad. That is not fair to everyone around me, I don't know if I can fix myself this time or if I even want to try anymore.

Things seem to be good then wham...

I thought I was doing well, and I thought, oh my I see the light at the end of the tunnel. Now I feel like I am falling down that hole again, I am spiraling out of control, I have started cutting again and I don't even want to go to school.
I feel like I am out of control of my life, like I am just doing what needs to be done and that is it, not even what I want to do but what others want me to do.
I will be ok, I know I will be ok I know I will get through this. It is just really hard for me right now and I needed to vent how I feel.


Hope every one has a wonderful day!